after it all

is it a miracle, is it a miracle
all the things in my life I survived
and I’m still here kickin it
kickin it very hard – and loud

you won’t believe the noise I make
when my stomach’s upset and
all I do is puke and puke and puke
until I can only taste it

that’s my way to relieve stress
and it’s an reaction to panic attacks
but I’m not very proud of all that
when some things are hitting my trigger points

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